What Hurts th Most

have you ever wondered what it'd be like, if you woke up one morning and found that you'd just lost it all,

life's been such a bitch, and im sorry for not blogging lately.
mm, ill update in greater detail with pictures soon, cause right now, i can't think straight. but, whatthheck.
so ther was chinese new year, and then mm, valentines, out with matt(met nat&josh too), nat, amelia, angie, ailynn, van, th cell people and well, valentine's, and lotsa other stuff.
im just reviving, so ill blog better another time, im super sorry.
friday, met nat at wheelock t study, then we couldnt take it and went t ofs. and then th guys totally ditched us so whatever. she went home and i went for band prac, sunset diecast'd just finished their auditions so went for dinner with ariel, andrea and char. met andrew there, and we kindof went for band prac really late. so whatever.
yilun's wedding on saturday, sweet much, she was really preety. pictures from that day soon, i really can't upload much now.
then sunday, church and then th airport with th rest, then after that met matt, then home. yesterday i didnt do much, went t ps t pick up some stuff and then home-d t study and then some shit stuff happened.

thanks nat love, for being such an awesome girl, love you t bits.
and my darling, for cheering me up, i think. my phone bill, ohmg. heh!

toodles <3

touchdown turnaround

so i havent been posting much, but whatever. and and and, i really wanna say this,
i love syaaaaaaaa <3
i baked with sya yesterday, she's a heck of an swesome girl :D
talked about alot of things, and well, yes you're right! (and so is matt) we do have much much much in common, haha.
and so yesterday, i met her at cold storage t get some stuff after school, which i was with eunice at before she came (:
then then then i sent eunice (<3!) off and then i went t macs t do my work for abit (yes liser i know im hell hardworking now eh, hah, my ass). then, she came so we went t get stuff.
i cant believe her idea of junk food is like, digestive biscuits and those raspberry centre filling things. haha, but still, healthy healthy, yay. haha. yes i make no sense, but whatev. haha
then we walked back and talked for abit, then when we got t my place, i realised i left my key inside th house and there wasnt anyone around at home so we waited for my maid and my brother. haha, which took us like 40 minutes? or maybe an hour, but anyway, we had a fun time doing our homework, camwhoring and talking :D
so when my maid finally came we dumped our bags and started baing, haha.
okay so we fooled around for abit but whatev. haha.
sugar, bread flour, measure here and there, boil, mix, shove it in th oven, wash up, talk, gossip and freak out, and then you've got perfectly awesome brownies, or so tessa, lenny, nic toh, grace, andrea, eunice and th whole gang says, and kimberley too!
i didnt take pictures yesterday, and i dont even know why. ew, im weird. haha okay anyway.
so then we talked some more while waiting for th stuff t cool down and everything, and then walked over t kap where her dad picked her up.
then i went home.
and and and yesterday was th last episode of beyond th break! omg la, i swear kai and that whatever his name is guy are so cute, and jacy and deejay too! omg omg omg. haha.
anyway,
then matt called (!!!!!) and then that stupid liar, hung up so fast.
ughhh.
anyway, (haha) today was alright, i guess.
school and drama auditions.
and omg, i swear eunice and nic toh's high jumps 're .
haha, i wanna jump like them manxzx. haha, okay anyway.
than achibra lesson was funny (as usual). yongchitchow (HAH) used th black board and th chalk! haha. then alot of real shit funny stuff tht i kinda forgot.
haha,
oh and i cant remember if it was today or yesterday, and i cant remember what grace said, but i know it was really crappy and then kim was like, "you wanna die ah grace?" and then th whole class started laughing.
i love my class, actually.
so, the class politics havent really sunken in yet, but whatever, we're all fine with each other now and __ isnt actually THAT bad, we should all learn t forgive and forget anyway, right? haha.
okay so anyway,
grace, tess, eunice ong (), andrea, rachel teh, eunice wong, zhang, nicole toh, kim, and all th rest,
love you guys much.
and thank you eunice, for alway and forevermore being always and forevermore there for me.
love you t bits :D
and and and charlene too, i love you (:
oh oh oh and leyee's coming back tomorrow, i cant wait :D
and when she comes back, we're going shopping, pooling, and all sorts of stuff.
you have NO IDEA how much i need retail therapy now.

anyway, back t achibra homework and then english essay. eurgh.
haha okay,
much love!

(and yes sya you're right, no it wasnt senseless, we're all in this together! haha)

Sugar, we're going down swinging

Th past few days' been pretty much in school, i mean till like, late. haha.
eunice and i practically lived in school for like 12+ hours.
but thank god th board's finally done and god, it looks awesome much :D haha.
tessa and lenny stayed back for abit too on thursday, so we managed t get more things done, haha.
and i left early on friday, after th "paint-splattering session".
haha, i love char, eun&abbs.
and then Matt left last night, pfffft.
t kunming. cheena place, eeyer.
haha okay im joking.
anyway, so i havent been doing anything today,
i was supposed t go out with angeline, but then her mom cancelled our date, piss off. haha.
so, ive been sleeping and watching tv th whole day.
hahaa, i dont even know how t contact leyee la its pissing me off, ughhh.
i feel like going for a hairwash.
haha, i miss leyee.
pfft.
and matt.

ohwells, i shall go play with my stationery now, haha i dont care, i know im childish.
ehhhh,
muchlove (:

i need a hairwash, leyee and angeline.

this, is so pissing me off.

#4

pool party yesterday, at darren and daryl's.
soulja boy dance (heh, helloyorkying:D), pris's salad, animal game, satttt, talking with cher, clar, pris, ash, ben, jin, pong, celine. taitee, asshole taitee, haha. you guys are fun much, and i think the way ebn laughs is just totally hilarious.
anyway, yeah.
and met matt in the afternoon too. eh, haha.
i havent much t say about that, hah.
and th past few day's i've been with eunice muchhhh, i swear i love her, and she's my desk partner too :D
miss leyeeeee, come back soon la, all'a the teachers are calling you sean. haha.
so starbucks and shopping (:
and oh yes, new years eve :D
went out with ange and matt after ange's work and boy was it funny. haha, then ange left and naz came and shit happened but i guess its all alright now.
mm, i'm just summarizing everything t one small bit now haha. but yeah, pictures when i feel like it and pool party pictures when i upload and pris&dani sends.
love for now,
rach (:

I can't stand being this way.
Tessa, Eunice, Abby, Char, Grace, I'm sorryyy.
Being this cynical is horrible. fug.

This is about knowing the difference between right and wrong, between the truth and a lie. And if you can't tell the difference, then you can't trust anyone. And if you can't trust, you can't love.
-Georgia Rule.